You are boogyman.

Saturday was a day. A day full of tears and sadness. Thanks to Raudah, everything burst. Its not a secret anymore. Thanks to you. It started when my mum asked us out. We went out for lunch somewhere in KL. While waiting for the food to come, I told Raudah what had happen the day before. All of sudden, she came out with something unexpected. My heart stopped beating. I can't believe it. I felt really really stupid. How can this thing happen? I mean like right in front of me, but I just couldn't see it? Why was I so blur and blind? Why? Sigh. And tada. My mood is totally ruined. I wanted to cry, but I had to pull back since Im out. In the car, I tried so hardly not to cry, its hard but it worked.

I reached home. Ziha called, and yes. I cried so hard. I told her everything, and she went speechless. She couldn't say anything else since she has never been into this situation. Thanks anyway for the wonderful words, Ziha. And yes, the conversation ended. I cried cried and cried and I fell asleep. I woke up like hours after that, and continue crying. I am seriously tired of crying but I just couldn't stop it. And then, I heard dad's voice. I asked him whether I can join my cousin's slumber party or not. And he said yes. He didn't know that fact that Im going there so that I have someone to talk and cry to.

Before I went to Nabila's, we went to Ampang Point to get my mum's ubat for jantung and whatever. I was so quiet cause I was soo speechless. We went to Dagang to have dinner. I just had like two brocollis and carrots since that morning. And I wasn't hungry at all. I reached Nabila's at 11 and they weren't home. I called Afiq to pick me up and send me to Castle. Thank God he was free. He picked me up and talked in the car. I cried, again. I hope he was okay with it cause Im just really sensitive when it comes to love matter.

Met up all my cousins. I thought its gonna be fun but it wasn't since I had fever and a major headache. Shisha for the second time in life, it wasn't cool since Im having infections with my throat. We had a talk about the problems Im having. We were there I mean out until 2 in the morning. I was quiet, really quiet. Yayas picked us up and we got back home. I went online and thank God, Afiq was online too. I talked to him, he helped me alot. Anas called, Nabil tried calling, Ayi texted and asked, same goes to Man. Im just so glad that I have all of them around me. I was okay after that until I saw those pictures. Those pictures are my nightmare.

What I did was, turned away the laptop and screamed. Azzah took away the laptop and I cried and ran to the bathroom. Azzah followed me in and give me a huge hug. Thanks cousins. We went up to the roof then. We sat there for hours. And I was crying again. I just hated being me. I can waste my tears just like that. I had my meds or I shall say my drugs and thank god. I fell asleep.