It's been awhile

It's funny that I'm trying so hard not to write something today on my blog but I just can't help it.
Here's the thing.
God gave us complications in life.
No point of living if you don't have that in your life.
I know that well cause I've been facing them a lot lately.
In so many ways, life is just so hard for me but I never gave up.
You don't have to get so damn dramatic just to let people know how much you got angry with life.
You don't have to tell the whole wide world.
Disappointment is something you will always get in your life.
But you can't let that overcome you.
Take it as a lesson, not something bad.
You might think I'm writing about you.
I may not write about you.
But it's all up to you how you read this post as.
You can dislike me, you can hate me.
I don't mind cause you know what?
Life's not all about you or even me.
You might feel satisfied talking or trashing me from the back.
But you don't know how sinful those curses you've made about me.
I appreciate all the time we had.
You should too.
In so many ways, if I have ever hurt you, I am sorry.
I really am, but I can't turn back time and change things.
I don't have that time machine I wanted so badly yet.
I can't erase whatever God has written for me, you, my friend and all of us here.

Talking about friendships here,
To me, whoever I call them my friend, you will always be one.
If you're in problems, I'll be there for you.
That is what friends are for right?
Having a great friendship is all I want in my life.
You have apologized before, you have made promises to God that you won't repeat whatever you've done.
I accepted, but why aren't you sticking to your words?
Can't you see what you're doing?
You're hurting my friend so badly, stop it.
Have mercy.
If you still wanna do it, let whatever you're having go.
You don't know how hard my friend had to go through just to make sure you're feeling fine,
Really.
Appreciate what you are having now cause you will regret once you have lost it.
Trust me, I had so many experiences when it comes to this kind of regretful in life.

My favourite topic, relationships.
I used to hate this topic.
I really do.
It took me over a year to re-like this topic.
It's hard, real hard.
Let me tell you one thing.
If you're unhappy with what I'm having, I'm sorry.
I feel thankful for what I have.
Having such a wonderful person in my life.
You know, life is all about waiting.
And waiting is about being sincere and honesty.
Sometimes, waiting won't make you lose anything.
*You know you have waited. And thanks for waiting. Love you (:
So yeah, frustration is normal while waiting.
You can't expect to get whatever you want in your life.
Sometimes you will but it takes time.

I really don't wanna worse things.
But you are doing it by bringing those strangers into this.
Let's cut this crap out.
Stop this unhappy issues from going around cause life's real short.
I don't wanna waste any chances of having a good life.
I really don't.

Ps, I lovelovelove you.
Xoxo