Better Tomorrows

The day I have once planned to remind you that it has passed the 2000th hour since you've flown to London is the day you came back home. A coincidence or all fated, I am not sure but my instincts about you are never wrong. To see you after 2016 hours is a big bless to me. No words could ever explain how good and thankful I am. Things are a little bit off my expectations, but you should know how more than happy I am to see you. If only time machines were existed in this world, I would go back to the time I saw you coming out from the car, I would just run up to you, hug you tight, cry on your shoulder and listen to your heart beats but knowing what my boundaries are, and how painful we have went through, I'll secretly wish for these. I realized that I now have fear of expressing my feelings directly but I believe it's the best thing for me cause I might have just upset or even hurt people more. I am scared to be who I was before. So, I am sorry. It means so much to me to get to know why you came back for. But I know how uneasy things should be now after the pain I have caused you and how painful it is for me too. I know I can't say this anymore to you, but if you ever get to read this, I love you. You are the wishes I made while I blew off my candles on my birthday and you are also the prayers I said each time I talk to our God.