Sighing

Never believe in forever.

I was only at the 3rd line, and I stopped.
I can't even continue what I have started from the first line.
Obviously it brought me to tears but no one cares anymore.
I had nightmares about all this.
And it happened, this is what I call dream came true.
I stayed up just because I wanted to know is it something good or bad.

You know what, I'll continue very soon.

I know you know it hurts me so bad.
Xoxo

Sexy

So yeah, I think I wanna redo my hair like this.
What do you think?

Pretty hair,
Xoxo

Baby V

Vanessa and Stella Hudgens

They're both pretty.

Used to be a fan,
Xoxo

Prettay!

Leighton Meester as Blair Waldorf

Jessica Stroup as Erin Silver

Jessica Stroup really reminds me of Leighton Meester.
Plus, they're both pretty.
And they're both starred in very dramatic tv shows, 90210 and Gossip Girl

Ps Ayo, you so have to watch 90210.
Xoxo

It's been awhile

It's funny that I'm trying so hard not to write something today on my blog but I just can't help it.
Here's the thing.
God gave us complications in life.
No point of living if you don't have that in your life.
I know that well cause I've been facing them a lot lately.
In so many ways, life is just so hard for me but I never gave up.
You don't have to get so damn dramatic just to let people know how much you got angry with life.
You don't have to tell the whole wide world.
Disappointment is something you will always get in your life.
But you can't let that overcome you.
Take it as a lesson, not something bad.
You might think I'm writing about you.
I may not write about you.
But it's all up to you how you read this post as.
You can dislike me, you can hate me.
I don't mind cause you know what?
Life's not all about you or even me.
You might feel satisfied talking or trashing me from the back.
But you don't know how sinful those curses you've made about me.
I appreciate all the time we had.
You should too.
In so many ways, if I have ever hurt you, I am sorry.
I really am, but I can't turn back time and change things.
I don't have that time machine I wanted so badly yet.
I can't erase whatever God has written for me, you, my friend and all of us here.

Talking about friendships here,
To me, whoever I call them my friend, you will always be one.
If you're in problems, I'll be there for you.
That is what friends are for right?
Having a great friendship is all I want in my life.
You have apologized before, you have made promises to God that you won't repeat whatever you've done.
I accepted, but why aren't you sticking to your words?
Can't you see what you're doing?
You're hurting my friend so badly, stop it.
Have mercy.
If you still wanna do it, let whatever you're having go.
You don't know how hard my friend had to go through just to make sure you're feeling fine,
Really.
Appreciate what you are having now cause you will regret once you have lost it.
Trust me, I had so many experiences when it comes to this kind of regretful in life.

My favourite topic, relationships.
I used to hate this topic.
I really do.
It took me over a year to re-like this topic.
It's hard, real hard.
Let me tell you one thing.
If you're unhappy with what I'm having, I'm sorry.
I feel thankful for what I have.
Having such a wonderful person in my life.
You know, life is all about waiting.
And waiting is about being sincere and honesty.
Sometimes, waiting won't make you lose anything.
*You know you have waited. And thanks for waiting. Love you (:
So yeah, frustration is normal while waiting.
You can't expect to get whatever you want in your life.
Sometimes you will but it takes time.

I really don't wanna worse things.
But you are doing it by bringing those strangers into this.
Let's cut this crap out.
Stop this unhappy issues from going around cause life's real short.
I don't wanna waste any chances of having a good life.
I really don't.

Ps, I lovelovelove you.
Xoxo

Compared

I just changed my song on my Ear Sugar section.
Well, it's a song by Pixie Lott.
You should listen.
I was so happy before I gave a listen to the song.
But I got a little bit carried away by the song now.
It's sad. Really.

The Last Song

Now press and play this.
Do check out Miley's new upcoming movie called The Last Song.
A movie we all should watch.

BFF

Bestfriends are your everything.

Bff means Best Friend Forever.
Xoxo

I'm thinking

If you think you're my girl or guy bestfriend, I miss you.
I need youuu.

Friends are forever.
Xoxo

Good smell

Talking about fragrances, I'm currently addicted to them now.
For some reasons, I just am (:
I would love to buy all this.
So daddy, pleaseeeeeee la. (:

Velvet Amber Blackberry by Victoria's Secret

Couture Couture by Juicy Couture

Black Star by Avril Lavigne

Christina Aguilera by Night

I love the way I smell.
Xoxo

Sleepy Already

It has been a week and I haven't been writing a proper post about you. I just don't know how and where to start.
It's hard to find the right words to say, really.
But whatever it is, you should know where you stand in my life.
It was a long wait, I admit.
And I'm truly sorry.
Again, I'm thanking you for the surprise you made last Friday.
It was the cutest and the most memorable moment for me.
I can't stop smiling everytime I think of what happened.
I may sound irrationally insane, but it's the truth I'm telling.
You want to know something?
You were the reason I got distracted during exam*That explains my bad grades.
Because of you I got sick.
I got upset easily when you were away.
I got worried everytime you didn't reply my text.
Late night phone calls from you made me smile.
I love the fact that I feel so comfortable telling you things about me.
It took me almost 2 hours to write this.
And I still have so many things to say.
I just don't know how to put it in words.

I shall continue very soon when I'm not sleepy tomorrow.

Dear sayang, enjoy your vacation.

Take care over there.

Don't forget me here.

I love you,

Xoxo.

Gracias

It has always been my favourite.
Thank you for the surprise, sayang.

You know I love you,
Xoxo

Sleeping

SICK AGAIN!
NIGHT!

You know I love you,
Xoxo.

I say

Hey, you're online!
You know, I'm not ignoring or even avoiding.
Just stop making your own conclusions.
It's not fun dealing with this situation.
I'm normally fine, I really am.
I'm having my exam now.
It's not like we just knew each other.
Do understand.
Please and thank you.

Nothing more. Do smile.
Xx

Short Story

A person is not supposed to go out to KLCC when she's having her Physics paper tomorrow. But when she has a sister named Raudah, she had no choice.

You're mine.
Xoxo

Speak Up

A part of me is telling you.
But all you do is keeping yourself quiet.
Or maybe you were trying.
I don't want it to be like this cause I tend to get sick.
Speak up, your silence is killing me.
I’ve had enough, so please say something.
How are you feeling?
Cause I can never tell.
Been silent for long,
Now I'm always checking.
Cause I never hear you say what you really think.
I wonder where have you been lately.
Nothing is making sense anymore.
I'm still standing here by the fence, waiting.
And even when you’re here, somehow you disappear.
If I can read your mind, I’d know just what to do.

Her pineapple,
Xoxo

Juicy

Whoever out there that have a name after a name of a fruit, a name that I gave, let me tell you a thing. I love you.

Pineapple or Banana,
Xoxo

IMY

Dearest friend,
I'm not gonna name you but you know what, I miss you.
I miss telling you stories.
I miss you telling me stories.
I just miss you la, as simple as that.

We were close,
Xoxo

Her Monologue

This is so cute!
Watch Taylor Swift singing her monologue song ;)

I heart you.
Xoxo

Jenny and Needy

Every guy's dream girl and every girl's best friend.

Thanks for watching it with me,
Xoxo

Few words about today

Empty stomach,
Bad headache,
Away from phone,
Sejarah-minded,
Lack of love from parents,
Light flu,
Bad relationship with sister,
Treated badly by brother,
Got scared by exams,
Another night without parents,
That is today.

Pineapple, where are you?
Xoxo

Add Sugar to Coffee

Things got me very upset.
You started to change.
Changing to a whole new person.
I can't bare with it.
Your changes changed me.
I became irrational, quiet and unusual.
I cried myself to bed just because how I wished you didn't reply at all.
Knowing the untrue you was very hurtful.
I got distracted by everything you said.
I was really freaked out that night.
For so long you have waited.
When I am finally here, you were not there.
I used to laugh to the every single joke you tell.
But nowadays, the only thing I heard from you is problems.
I don't mind listening because that is what I do.
It is just that I can't help you if you don't help yourself.
I didn't take my breakfast nor lunch when I think of your unpresence.
I am used to wish you good night and tell you stories.
But when you move apart slowly, I got scared.
My eyes are red and swallen just because of all the tears I had for you.
You should know how crazy I have become when you decided to dissapear for couple of days.
Do not ever do this to me again.
I was suffering and I think I still am.

How I tried so hard to love coffee,

Xoxo

Smiley Miley

Miley for Vanity Fair.

Fan made it such a big issue cause to them it's inappropriate.

Roomy

Miley's room.

How I wish my room is like this.
Here's the thing.
I'm moving soon right.
So yeah, I went to get the tiles for my bathroom yesterday.
My bathroom will be in green, white, brown and pink.
Oh, and pictures of roses will be on the wall too.
Can't wait to move.
Xoxo

She does

First of all what I can say is today's not a good day. November 4th is not a good date. It started when I received this one text in the morning before I left to school. And then Add Math and Physics papers made it worse. I did not have my breakfast nor my lunch today.

Well, the main reason I am online now just to voice out my opinion. I finally made this conclusion

"WHEN A PERSON IS NOT OFFICIALLY YOURS AND WHEN HE OR SHE SAYS I LOVE YOU, SHE OR HE ALWAYS MEAN IT. "

When she said she wants to help you, she sticks to her words. But before she helps you, you have to help yourself first. She does this because she cares.

Done with my words.
Xoxo

Farewell

AWAY FOR EXAM ;)
Xoxo