I totally don't agree with Happily Ever After.
A story to tell.
I don't think I want this anymore
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself, you've left before
This time you will stay gone, that's for sure.
As she drove away she starts to smile
Realized she hadn't for a while
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial.
She inhales a breath she'd never breathed before
Don't want no drama no more
And she says
No, happily never after
That just ain't for me
Because finally, I know
I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
You used to.
I know you're laughing happily.
I don't care.
You can laugh,
Till whenever you want.
Im not gonna do or say anything,
Cause Im not good at it.
I don't mind,
Let's just wait till the God judge.
You got what you want,
I wasted my tears.
You are the winner this time,
Im proud of you.
I don't care.
You can laugh,
Till whenever you want.
Im not gonna do or say anything,
Cause Im not good at it.
I don't mind,
Let's just wait till the God judge.
You got what you want,
I wasted my tears.
You are the winner this time,
Im proud of you.
You owe me
Money can't buy love,
But love needs money.
I don't buy love with money,
But I showed my love and I had to pay money.
I got my punnishment for overused the money,
But I didn't care cause it was all about love.
Now love has gone away,
So now its me without money.
*I know you don't get it, but who cares. I don't.
But love needs money.
I don't buy love with money,
But I showed my love and I had to pay money.
I got my punnishment for overused the money,
But I didn't care cause it was all about love.
Now love has gone away,
So now its me without money.
*I know you don't get it, but who cares. I don't.
Thing
I thought I was something,
Cause you were my everything.
I was actually nothing,
Cause I am not your anything.
Cause you were my everything.
I was actually nothing,
Cause I am not your anything.
I Gotta To
I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we left
Show up on my birthday
with a bouquet
Does he call me in the middle of the night
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me
The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, my love, my family
How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we left
Show up on my birthday
with a bouquet
Does he call me in the middle of the night
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
I'm Gonna Remember You
Your Gonna Remember Me
The things we did
The way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, my love, my family
How did we loose a love that seemed meant to be
You are boogyman.
Saturday was a day. A day full of tears and sadness. Thanks to Raudah, everything burst. Its not a secret anymore. Thanks to you. It started when my mum asked us out. We went out for lunch somewhere in KL. While waiting for the food to come, I told Raudah what had happen the day before. All of sudden, she came out with something unexpected. My heart stopped beating. I can't believe it. I felt really really stupid. How can this thing happen? I mean like right in front of me, but I just couldn't see it? Why was I so blur and blind? Why? Sigh. And tada. My mood is totally ruined. I wanted to cry, but I had to pull back since Im out. In the car, I tried so hardly not to cry, its hard but it worked.
I reached home. Ziha called, and yes. I cried so hard. I told her everything, and she went speechless. She couldn't say anything else since she has never been into this situation. Thanks anyway for the wonderful words, Ziha. And yes, the conversation ended. I cried cried and cried and I fell asleep. I woke up like hours after that, and continue crying. I am seriously tired of crying but I just couldn't stop it. And then, I heard dad's voice. I asked him whether I can join my cousin's slumber party or not. And he said yes. He didn't know that fact that Im going there so that I have someone to talk and cry to.
Before I went to Nabila's, we went to Ampang Point to get my mum's ubat for jantung and whatever. I was so quiet cause I was soo speechless. We went to Dagang to have dinner. I just had like two brocollis and carrots since that morning. And I wasn't hungry at all. I reached Nabila's at 11 and they weren't home. I called Afiq to pick me up and send me to Castle. Thank God he was free. He picked me up and talked in the car. I cried, again. I hope he was okay with it cause Im just really sensitive when it comes to love matter.
Met up all my cousins. I thought its gonna be fun but it wasn't since I had fever and a major headache. Shisha for the second time in life, it wasn't cool since Im having infections with my throat. We had a talk about the problems Im having. We were there I mean out until 2 in the morning. I was quiet, really quiet. Yayas picked us up and we got back home. I went online and thank God, Afiq was online too. I talked to him, he helped me alot. Anas called, Nabil tried calling, Ayi texted and asked, same goes to Man. Im just so glad that I have all of them around me. I was okay after that until I saw those pictures. Those pictures are my nightmare.
What I did was, turned away the laptop and screamed. Azzah took away the laptop and I cried and ran to the bathroom. Azzah followed me in and give me a huge hug. Thanks cousins. We went up to the roof then. We sat there for hours. And I was crying again. I just hated being me. I can waste my tears just like that. I had my meds or I shall say my drugs and thank god. I fell asleep.
I reached home. Ziha called, and yes. I cried so hard. I told her everything, and she went speechless. She couldn't say anything else since she has never been into this situation. Thanks anyway for the wonderful words, Ziha. And yes, the conversation ended. I cried cried and cried and I fell asleep. I woke up like hours after that, and continue crying. I am seriously tired of crying but I just couldn't stop it. And then, I heard dad's voice. I asked him whether I can join my cousin's slumber party or not. And he said yes. He didn't know that fact that Im going there so that I have someone to talk and cry to.
Before I went to Nabila's, we went to Ampang Point to get my mum's ubat for jantung and whatever. I was so quiet cause I was soo speechless. We went to Dagang to have dinner. I just had like two brocollis and carrots since that morning. And I wasn't hungry at all. I reached Nabila's at 11 and they weren't home. I called Afiq to pick me up and send me to Castle. Thank God he was free. He picked me up and talked in the car. I cried, again. I hope he was okay with it cause Im just really sensitive when it comes to love matter.
Met up all my cousins. I thought its gonna be fun but it wasn't since I had fever and a major headache. Shisha for the second time in life, it wasn't cool since Im having infections with my throat. We had a talk about the problems Im having. We were there I mean out until 2 in the morning. I was quiet, really quiet. Yayas picked us up and we got back home. I went online and thank God, Afiq was online too. I talked to him, he helped me alot. Anas called, Nabil tried calling, Ayi texted and asked, same goes to Man. Im just so glad that I have all of them around me. I was okay after that until I saw those pictures. Those pictures are my nightmare.
What I did was, turned away the laptop and screamed. Azzah took away the laptop and I cried and ran to the bathroom. Azzah followed me in and give me a huge hug. Thanks cousins. We went up to the roof then. We sat there for hours. And I was crying again. I just hated being me. I can waste my tears just like that. I had my meds or I shall say my drugs and thank god. I fell asleep.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Just go.
It's funny how you think you really know yourself
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
You wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew you didn't love me anymore
If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinking I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something about you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
You wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew you didn't love me anymore
I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this
Like you would never lose yourself to someone else
And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me
Silly silly me
I should have never listened to a word you said
But I was always giving in to promises
I never should have gone for
I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets
And I want this to be over
I so want this to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
You wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew you didn't love me anymore
If you had only told me how you really felt
I could have put my feelings into someone else
But I was busy thinking I was where I was supposed to be
Silly silly me
But there was something about you that I couldn't resist
Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is
I never should have stood for it
I know you're no good for me
And that's the way it is
And I want it to be over
I so want it to be through
In the end somehow it always comes back to you
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me
You wasn't man enough
To come and tell me
That I was never the one
Like you said I was
You could have told someone
You knew you didn't love me anymore
I tell myself
Get over you
It's over right
Right thing to do
And just when I thought I was done
You pull me in for another run
I can't take this
Love madness
Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds
And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you
It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Altought I know
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you
I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds
And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you
It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Altought I know
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you
I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.
Singing you this.
I wasn’t looking for this
What is this?
I don’t know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself
On my own
Tell me how to
Stop this feeling
I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply I
Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s begun
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah
I can’t imagine right now
Standing here
Without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt
What I knew
I could never
Stop this feeling
I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply I
Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s begun
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah
Thank you for not letting go
When I said let me go
Thank you for timing
Thank your finding
Thank you for not believing me
Baby when I said
I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply I
Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s begun
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah
I wasn’t looking for this
And now I’m done
I’m done
What is this?
I don’t know
You know I was doing just fine
By myself
On my own
Tell me how to
Stop this feeling
I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply I
Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s begun
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah
I can’t imagine right now
Standing here
Without you
To think that I tried to ignore
What I felt
What I knew
I could never
Stop this feeling
I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply I
Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s begun
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah
Thank you for not letting go
When I said let me go
Thank you for timing
Thank your finding
Thank you for not believing me
Baby when I said
I don’t wanna fall in love
Just wanna have a little fun
Then you came and swept me up
And now I’m done, so done
Fallen madly deeply I
Surprised myself enough to find
That what’s begun
Is love
And now I’m done, so done
I’m done
Yeah
I wasn’t looking for this
And now I’m done
I’m done
Remember?
Words to be.
I still miss you like I did before,
I lied when I said the intense aching isn't there anymore,
I still whisper your name as much as I used to.
It's usually more then 10 times be for the day is through,
I will always hear your voice replaying in my mind it's never fading.
I hope silence I never find,
I still long for you touch but it's not like before I dream it much more,
I wonder sometimes how you are even though my feelings have changed they still go pretty far,
I don't feel you only sometimes but I think it might be only in my mind,
I still love you just as strong,
But I don't know how to let you go so we can both move on,
I still remember you said no one will love you like I do.
I wonder if that's still true,
you'll always have a piece of my heart and I'll always wish your here year after year,
I hope my memory of you never disappears.
I've got nothing else to say except I love you and miss you that's how my feelings will always stay.
Fate
There I go again. The same incident happened. A simple Hello from you and a plain Hii from me. I know I expected more than that. I mean like, Im talking about me. But it didn't happen since I was so shocked. Imagine, I haven't spoken or said anything yet ever since that incident. I have no idea why. I feel so weird. What's wrong with me? God, give me clues. Please. You've changed. I can see that very clearly. Im just scared. I was like this since just now lagi at school. It shows that the fate really wants me to see you. Can I know why? And I saw you. I know it maybe or might be a coincidence, but look on the other side. It was just so odd. Especially when it happens to me after all this while kan. Im all wrong about this. I pull back my words the other day. I cried after that. Thats why I just think it was weird.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Today, yes today.
Friday, a day before Saturday. The plan was not to go to school today but had to change the plan since Chan & Kim want all the interactors to be at school. Jay and I presented a presentation during Sejarah. It went beautifully well. Thanks to friends who helped ; Ziha, Zalikha and Jay herself. Recess time was quite boring since I can't eat anything heavy. I had fruits. I blame the doctor. Agama was boring too. Nothing interesting happen. Oh and we got back our exam slip. Thank to the dearest God and parents and teachers, I got number 8 in class. Alhamdulillah.
At 10, we had a goodbye ceremony for Puan Lim. It was kinda boring too but whatever. Ohmy, Im going out. I'll continue later (:
At 10, we had a goodbye ceremony for Puan Lim. It was kinda boring too but whatever. Ohmy, Im going out. I'll continue later (:
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Roses
A red, red rose,
posing in the vase on the counter
a reminder of the beauty of summer
of the smell of a full bouquet
the effortless, flawlessness
the perfection of a rose
supple petals, thorns to protect
even color, deep burgundy red
rich saturation of red
soothing red, passionate red
enshrined in the bloom
the bud opening in its glory
look at me!
Singing your song.
Yes, its already 9.51 and I haven't ate my meds yet. Whatever, I'll have it later. Today was okay. Everything went smoothly well. Ramai orang wasn't in school. That's normal, right? And yeaah, during Interact, me and Ziha helped Jet painting the tv. It was cool cause we get to be the little sciencetists. Haha. I got home at 4.45 in the evening. I got home and mandi.
At 5.45, mum sent me to Arin's for Anas' Add Math class. The class was seriously fun. I mean like forget about -you know who la kan-. Other than that, everything was okay. Thank God the problems were solved. Alhamdulillah (: Anas is okay now, compared to Tuesday kan. He was so upset. Yang lain was okay. Adam did something funny today. According to Anas laaa. Hahaha. And yeaah, Ayi was quiet. He was feeling dizzy, and now Im having it pula. Thanks! Haha. Yang lain tu, hyper as always. Just love being with you people. You made me laugh all day long. Hahaha.
At 5.45, mum sent me to Arin's for Anas' Add Math class. The class was seriously fun. I mean like forget about -you know who la kan-. Other than that, everything was okay. Thank God the problems were solved. Alhamdulillah (: Anas is okay now, compared to Tuesday kan. He was so upset. Yang lain was okay. Adam did something funny today. According to Anas laaa. Hahaha. And yeaah, Ayi was quiet. He was feeling dizzy, and now Im having it pula. Thanks! Haha. Yang lain tu, hyper as always. Just love being with you people. You made me laugh all day long. Hahaha.
I know right.
Miss you
Everyday and every night, this feeling I'd fight
Try as I might but I wont win, I surrender, I'd die
You are winning here alright
Every morning when the sun would shine on me
Id flash a smile but deep inside
I feel so sad and lonely
I need you here and now
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you
All I want is for this love to last forever
You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover
I can't bear it boy alright
When I hear a song that we had used to share
Ill try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over
Ill wish that you are near
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you
Everyday and every night, this feeling I'd fight
Try as I might but I wont win, I surrender, I'd die
You are winning here alright
Every morning when the sun would shine on me
Id flash a smile but deep inside
I feel so sad and lonely
I need you here and now
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you
All I want is for this love to last forever
You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover
I can't bear it boy alright
When I hear a song that we had used to share
Ill try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over
Ill wish that you are near
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
YUCK
It has been like three so called wonderful days I've been sick. Throwing up after you eat is seriously not cool. Im like suffering almost everyday at home and school. That's not pretty okay? Sigh.
Dumb Blonde
Hello Wednesday. I had an empty day. Naah, not that empty la. It was fahneeee! Let me tell you why.
During English today, we had to do a play. And yeah, it was starring by
Syaza the business woman- Jane
ME! the dumb blonde- Megan
Ziha the 2nd business woman- Alexis
Nik the fashion designer- I can't remember her name
Naz the sound maker.
Haha. It was hell embarassing cause we wasted time for like couple of minutes to think what should we do in front of the class. And it was kinda mengada cause it is supposed to be mengada kan since we're the Lost Lipstick Jungle. Hahaha. We ended the play half way since we had no idea what to do. The ending was quite sad cause we all were dead without no one killing us. Haha. I feel really dumb now. Thank God I ain't blonde. Haha.
During English today, we had to do a play. And yeah, it was starring by
Syaza the business woman- Jane
ME! the dumb blonde- Megan
Ziha the 2nd business woman- Alexis
Nik the fashion designer- I can't remember her name
Naz the sound maker.
Haha. It was hell embarassing cause we wasted time for like couple of minutes to think what should we do in front of the class. And it was kinda mengada cause it is supposed to be mengada kan since we're the Lost Lipstick Jungle. Hahaha. We ended the play half way since we had no idea what to do. The ending was quite sad cause we all were dead without no one killing us. Haha. I feel really dumb now. Thank God I ain't blonde. Haha.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
I love this.
Hahahaha. It's a cute song. Sing sing!
Cats and rabbits
Would reside in fancy little houses
And be dressed in shoes and hats and trousers
In a world of my own
All the flowers
Would have very extra special powers
They would sit and talk to me for hours
When I'm lonely in a world of my own
There'd be new birds
Lots of nice and friendly howdy-do birds
Everyone would have a dozen bluebirds
Within that world of my own
I could listen to a babbling brook
And hear a song that I could understand
I keep wishing it could be that way
Because my world would be a Wonderland
Would reside in fancy little houses
And be dressed in shoes and hats and trousers
In a world of my own
All the flowers
Would have very extra special powers
They would sit and talk to me for hours
When I'm lonely in a world of my own
There'd be new birds
Lots of nice and friendly howdy-do birds
Everyone would have a dozen bluebirds
Within that world of my own
I could listen to a babbling brook
And hear a song that I could understand
I keep wishing it could be that way
Because my world would be a Wonderland
Monday, March 23, 2009
S-I-C-K
Hello there again. Guess what? Im sick again. Im like seriously sick of being sick. Sigh. I just got back from the clinic. I have like soooo many meds I gotta take. I hate meds. Like seriously. But this time is a bit different. My throat got infected since the other day. I mean, last time I had fever, until now. And the infections infected my perut now. Thats why my perut was crazy today. According to the doctor, I am overstressed again. Super sigh.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Sing it!
Baby, I don't know what love is
Maybe I'm a fool
I just know what I'm feeling
And it's all because of you
Don't tell me
I don't know
I want the truth
Cuz they call it
We call it
You call it
I call it love
<3>
Maybe I'm a fool
I just know what I'm feeling
And it's all because of you
Don't tell me
I don't know
I want the truth
Cuz they call it
We call it
You call it
I call it love
<3>
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
It is for you.
And you too. I don't like you.
You wanna know why?
Ask yourself.
Please.
You've changed.
Your changes just hurt my feelings.
Whatever.
Please, wake up from your sleep.
Its morning already.
Don't let me change my mind forever.
You wanna know why?
Ask yourself.
Please.
You've changed.
Your changes just hurt my feelings.
Whatever.
Please, wake up from your sleep.
Its morning already.
Don't let me change my mind forever.
Late night
You tell me you're in love with me
That you can't take your
Pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say,
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
I don't wanna be so shy, oh oh
But every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you
really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know,
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
All i really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
baby all i need is time
Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you
That you can't take your
Pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away
I wanna believe in everything that you say,
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know
Sometimes I runSometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time
I don't wanna be so shy, oh oh
But every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me
I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you
really want me, move slowThere's things about me you just have to know,
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
All i really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
baby all i need is time
Just hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you
One of My Favourite
Nisha's party. Omg, I miss those moments! Haha. We had this dance competition and I won! Yayy! I was so hyper at that night. I blame my tiredness. Haha. I ended up having high fever on the next day. <3And After All
It was no accident
Maybe heaven sent
Everything worked out just like he planned
Its not my place
To mess with faith
You cant control what isn't in your hands
And after all I don't regret a thing
I want to thank you
For showing me this life
And after all I don't regret a thing
Cuz I know you
And I know you'll, I know you'll be alright
Holding hands
We were making plans
Forever didn't seem so far away
It's hard to think
It was you and me
Tangled up together in that frame
And after all I don't regret a thing
I want to thank you
For showing me this life
And after all I don't regret a thing
Cuz I know you
And I know you'll, I know you'll be alright
And it's hard
Even when you know it's for the best
Cuz the whole time you're still asking
Is it just another test
And its hard
Even when you know its for the best
Cuz the whole time you're still asking
Is it just another test
And after all I don't regret a thing
I want to thank you
For showing me this life
And after all I don't regret a thing
Cuz I know you
And I know you'll, I know you'll be alright.
Maybe heaven sent
Everything worked out just like he planned
Its not my place
To mess with faith
You cant control what isn't in your hands
And after all I don't regret a thing
I want to thank you
For showing me this life
And after all I don't regret a thing
Cuz I know you
And I know you'll, I know you'll be alright
Holding hands
We were making plans
Forever didn't seem so far away
It's hard to think
It was you and me
Tangled up together in that frame
And after all I don't regret a thing
I want to thank you
For showing me this life
And after all I don't regret a thing
Cuz I know you
And I know you'll, I know you'll be alright
And it's hard
Even when you know it's for the best
Cuz the whole time you're still asking
Is it just another test
And its hard
Even when you know its for the best
Cuz the whole time you're still asking
Is it just another test
And after all I don't regret a thing
I want to thank you
For showing me this life
And after all I don't regret a thing
Cuz I know you
And I know you'll, I know you'll be alright.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Anymore
Hii thereee! Im bored, very bored. Extremely bored. I can't find anything better to do now other than chatting with my lovely Hanna and Faeez. New things came to me. I like it anyway. And things between me and my tuition mates are okay now. Yayyy! I love you guys so so much.
A big thank you to my joker, Ayi! You helped me alot in realizing how the world works. Thanks Ayi Dizon.
And next, guess what? AZIE IS IN THE TOWN. I miss her so so much. We have so many things to do together. Now we're just waiting for the right time to come. Hahaha. And the map, kan Ziha? We have planned everything beautifully. Oh la laaa (:
A big thank you to my joker, Ayi! You helped me alot in realizing how the world works. Thanks Ayi Dizon.
And next, guess what? AZIE IS IN THE TOWN. I miss her so so much. We have so many things to do together. Now we're just waiting for the right time to come. Hahaha. And the map, kan Ziha? We have planned everything beautifully. Oh la laaa (:
Friday, March 13, 2009
Mirror mirror on the wall
NOT YOU. oh well, how sad but whatever. I didn't update yesterday's story because I was up to something else. But yeaah, nothing funny happen. Todaaay is a normal day with normal daily routines. The seniors came to school today, for their results. I didn't get to see them cause we had classes. Wait you know what? I'll continue esok. Im not in the mood.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Busy day
Good evening Ladies and Gentlemen (: I just got back from Math and Add Math tuition. I had a very busy Tuesday. But I am used to it. School was okay. I got back my Chemistry and Physics paper. And guess what? I got;
A1 for Chemistry
and
60/90 for Physics
Yaay, for the first time in life, I got great results for the first exam. But yeaah, its not important pun sebenarnya. I won't affect anything in future pun. Haha. But Alhamdulillah anyway (:
Lets talk about tuition now. Today's class was a bit different. I think I know why. Forget about that. Im here to bring back some of the past. I miss last year's class. We were like family, we loved each other. We were like sisters and brothers but things are different now. I have no idea why. I guess time changed everyone.
and
60/90 for Physics
Yaay, for the first time in life, I got great results for the first exam. But yeaah, its not important pun sebenarnya. I won't affect anything in future pun. Haha. But Alhamdulillah anyway (:
Lets talk about tuition now. Today's class was a bit different. I think I know why. Forget about that. Im here to bring back some of the past. I miss last year's class. We were like family, we loved each other. We were like sisters and brothers but things are different now. I have no idea why. I guess time changed everyone.
Anas
Emma
Adam
Ayi
Aish
Bihah
Syahmi
Ziha
Nabil
Syakirah
Emma
Adam
Ayi
Aish
Bihah
Syahmi
Ziha
Nabil
Syakirah
I've listed out the names. People who were in my family. We aren't now. Sad poor little thing. I hope things will get back to where it was like last year. I'll post some of our pictures of last year soon. I gotta go now. Gotta catch up with homeworks. Night.
Monday, March 09, 2009
Just a comparison
Lets compare between these two pictures. Hahaha.
First of all, these two pictures were taken in LA but in different years.
My name is the same but my age is different.
Do you see me? Hahahaha. (Don't laugh) I know. I looked like an orang asli's daughter. As if I didn't get to eat for 5 years pasal tak cukup makan.
Picture number two. Was taken 3 years after the first picture. See me? I think I look chubbier here. Hahaha. There you go. You've seen me when I was super skinny and not skinny.
First of all, these two pictures were taken in LA but in different years.
My name is the same but my age is different.
Do you see me? Hahahaha. (Don't laugh) I know. I looked like an orang asli's daughter. As if I didn't get to eat for 5 years pasal tak cukup makan.
Picture number two. Was taken 3 years after the first picture. See me? I think I look chubbier here. Hahaha. There you go. You've seen me when I was super skinny and not skinny.
W for Weird
Hii there again. I was awaaay for couple of days. Not away laa but I wasn't in the right mood to go and blog on my life. Been busy handling my bad moods. And yeaah, life is not going so well. I mean like what I expected last year. Tapi takpa, Im just gonna move on. I can't do anything about it, right? Today is Monday, Im sure you all know that very well. We had a day off because of Maulidul Rasul. I didn't go for tuition today, blame fever AGAIN. I just hate it when fever comes. OHMYGOD. But whatever.
Topic number one. MUM.
She's weird lately. I mean like really weird. She always blame me for no reasons. Eventhough it is not my fault. But takpa, Im used to it. Bla bla.
Topic number two. DAD.
I miss you. Come hooome! You're always busy with work. Stay home and get me a new phone. Haha ;)
Topic number three. SIBLINGS.
Leave my life alone. Don't use me to get what you want and once you got it, you treated me like a cat. Hello, I have feelings too.
Topic number four. AZIE.
You're coming back home soon! Yayyyy! I miss you so so much. We'll go out okay? And Ziha, lets get the party started! (:
Topic number five. COUSINS.
There are like sooo many names I gotta list down tapi Im just so pemalas. So, whoever thinks that you are related to me, Lets have a sleepover party. I miss those days. :(
Topic number six. THOSE WHO THINK IM CRAZY FOR NOT REPLYING TEXTS.
Hahaha. Im sorry. Im just so weird lately.
Topic number one. MUM.
She's weird lately. I mean like really weird. She always blame me for no reasons. Eventhough it is not my fault. But takpa, Im used to it. Bla bla.
Topic number two. DAD.
I miss you. Come hooome! You're always busy with work. Stay home and get me a new phone. Haha ;)
Topic number three. SIBLINGS.
Leave my life alone. Don't use me to get what you want and once you got it, you treated me like a cat. Hello, I have feelings too.
Topic number four. AZIE.
You're coming back home soon! Yayyyy! I miss you so so much. We'll go out okay? And Ziha, lets get the party started! (:
Topic number five. COUSINS.
There are like sooo many names I gotta list down tapi Im just so pemalas. So, whoever thinks that you are related to me, Lets have a sleepover party. I miss those days. :(
Topic number six. THOSE WHO THINK IM CRAZY FOR NOT REPLYING TEXTS.
Hahaha. Im sorry. Im just so weird lately.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Wait up!
Yadayadayada. After two days being not online, menyeksa kan. I had to study. And guess what? Exam is finished. Yayyy! Finally. Ehhh, kejap. Had to go. I continue my story tomorrow. Im sleepy. Haha.
You are sixteen
Happy Birthday Zalikha! Welcome to the sixteens! Hope you enjoyed your time at your surprise party. Thank God it works on you. Love you, xoxo.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Ohmyohmy.
Today was okay. Thank God. I had my Math and EST papers. Ziha is sick, and she might not be coming to school. Ziha sayang, get well soon. Get enough rest and drink lots of water. Oh and eat your meds (: Haha. As if I eat mine. Hahaha. Okay then. Can't talk much, have to get back to books. Im finishing up my Sejarah and start with Agama. OMG. Wish me lucky (: Good night.
PS : Im having sore throat. Yikes.
PS : Im having sore throat. Yikes.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Yawning
I think I should go now. Its almost 12 and plus, Im not doing so well. And I have to reply some texts. So, I shall be back tomorrow for more updates.
Good night,
Sweet dreams.
L-O-V-E Y-O-U (:
xoxo.
Good night,
Sweet dreams.
L-O-V-E Y-O-U (:
xoxo.
Weirdy weirdy
WOW! That was really very extremely super duperly weird. Thanks anyway. Haha
But it's alright. Im gonna think positively. Always to the positive way (:
But it's alright. Im gonna think positively. Always to the positive way (:
No Idea
Howdy howdy! Im supposed to mengadap my so called boyfriend *pfft my sejarah textbook* because I have exam tomorrow. Eventhough sejarah is not tomorrow, I thought of getting ready a little bit earlier for Sejarah since Im not good in Sejarah. Okaay, let me tell you about today's paper. I had Accounts for the first time. It was okaaay except for the 'Akaun nominal' soalan. I seriously forgot what is akaun nominal. Zuraidah dah explained, but my fault. I wasn't listening to her. Haha. Serve me right. And yeah, we had Chemistry after that. Heyy, guess what? I lovelovelove Chemistry so so much. Thanks to Haizul and that Haizasham Hamzah or however you spell your name. You both rock my world. Haha. Time moved on, its time for Add Math. Add Math was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crazy. I cried when I was doing the questions. There were like 13 subjective questions and I answered 11 of them. Tu pun I wasn't sure at all with all the answers. Most of them I tembak. So yeaah, Im NOT looking forward to get back the test paper. My tekak is very menyeksakan. I was okay this morning. Ziha had sakit tekak since morning. 2 hours after that, all her germs jump onto me and TADAAAAAAA! Im having it now. Haha. I guess the doctor was right about me the other day. She said I am easy to get infected by penyakit and those kumans. Yikes, now Im suffering. And yeah, went to tuition today. It is good to have Ayi back in class. He put smiles on people's face. He's a joker, a real joker. Thanks ayi! Im happy you're back. And Yazeen came by to visit. Me, Hanna and him went to Ampang Point to get McDonald since I was hungry. I went home 30 minutes earlier pasal my throat was killing me. Now Im home. Yayyy! Oh myy, Im having my EST and Math papers tomorrow. Ucapkan saya berjaya. Haha.
Monday, March 02, 2009
Nighty
Its already 11.20. I think I should off to bed. I have to wake up early tomorrow for school.
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE.
LOVE YOU, XOXO!
GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE.
LOVE YOU, XOXO!
What a day
Hello world. I woke up this morning, I was in shocked pasal today is Monday. Wow. I went to school, bla bla. Had my exams. BM was quite hard, especially the rumusan part. I had no clue what to do for rumusan. Next, we had English. They had this Body Shop article on. It was okay except for the first section. Very very confusing. But I managed to answer all in one hour time. Yayy me. I have Chemistry, Add Math, Accounts and Sivik exams tomorrow. Wish me luck (:
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Bed Allert
It's almost midnight, 11.51pm. I think I should go to bed now.
Bueno nochas, mi amor.
I love you,
You love me,
We are happy family,
With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you
MUAH
Won't you say you love me to? (:
Xoxo, bye.
Bueno nochas, mi amor.
I love you,
You love me,
We are happy family,
With a great big hug and a kiss from me to you
MUAH
Won't you say you love me to? (:
Xoxo, bye.
Freaking out
Another rough day. OHMYGOD. Can't stand it anymore. I cried twice today. I just wasted my tears. But whatever, who cares. I don't. Im having BM and English exams tomorrow. Im freaking out. Oh no. The first exam in the year 2009. Can I do it? I don't think so. I didn't really study. Honestly, I barely touch the books. So, don't expect anything gooood from me. Sorry mum and pup. Wish me luck for tomorrow.
Morning in the night.
Bye bye.
Good night,
Sweet dreams.
Inalcanzable como estrella tan distante
Un amor casi imposible
Invisible como al aire
Eres tan inalcanzable
Tan sublime como un angel
Un amor casi imposible
Como fuego que no arde
Te me has vuelto inalcanzable
Good night,
Sweet dreams.
Inalcanzable como estrella tan distante
Un amor casi imposible
Invisible como al aire
Eres tan inalcanzable
Tan sublime como un angel
Un amor casi imposible
Como fuego que no arde
Te me has vuelto inalcanzable
5th
My fifth post of the day. Hahaha. I can't sleep, that's why Im awake. Nabila gave me this video, its soooo cool. Haha. Watch watch watch! Press the PLAY button. (:
Come Baaaack!
Hahaha. Was recorded last year at Nabila's during her birthday. I miss this so so much.
From left; Azzah, Rabihah, Sasha & Nabila
From left; Azzah, Rabihah, Sasha & Nabila
Wide Awake
I CAN'T SLEEP.
Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are,
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.
Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are.
Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are,
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.
Twinkle twinkle little star,
How I wonder what you are.
Tag tag!
Name 5 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 5 people.This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.
1. Azie
2. Ziha
3. Nisha
4. Hanna
5. Pokok *Haha
NO CHEATING!DONT READ AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED THE TOP.
How did you meet 1?
Primary school.
On a scale of 1 -10 how would u rate your friendship with 1?
I would say 10 <3
How long have you known 4?
2 years I think.
How do you know number 3?
Since the day she was born, in the year 1994.
Wheres 5?
Somewhere in this world.
A fact about number 1?
I can tell her everything about me.
Who is 4 going out with?
Me! Haha. No one.
What does 1 do for a living?
Schooling.
Would you live with number 3?
I'd love to.
What do you like about number 2?
She can read my mind. Haha.
Do you miss number 5?
Haha. Yeaaaah, like duh.
Would you make out with number 4?
Hahahahahha.
What’s your opinion of number 2?
She's the best.
What's your favorite memory with number 5?
Banyaaaaak, trust me. Haha.
What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
Hahahahahahaha. I'll laugh my ass off. Sweeeeet!
Ever had a long conversation with 5?
Haha. Yeaah, mesti laaaa.
Have you ever slept at 2's house?
Yeaah, pernah.
Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
Tak terkira.
Who have you known the longest?
Number 2 and five (:
How often do you talk to 1?
Used to talk to her every single day but not now. :(
What about 2?
Setiap hari wajib.
Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
Hahahah. She's my cousin.
Would you go out for a date with 5?
Hahahahaha. I shall say nothing. ;)
Do you dream about 2?
Pernaah juga she came into my dream.
What did no 4 did to you that you can never forget?
She's always here with me when I needed someone. Thanks sayang.
What have you done for 1 that the person never forget?
Went to her place before she left to Langkawi.
What's 3 hobby?
Bergossip.
Who do u want to TAG?
SEMUA (: Haha.
1. Azie
2. Ziha
3. Nisha
4. Hanna
5. Pokok *Haha
NO CHEATING!DONT READ AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED THE TOP.
How did you meet 1?
Primary school.
On a scale of 1 -10 how would u rate your friendship with 1?
I would say 10 <3
How long have you known 4?
2 years I think.
How do you know number 3?
Since the day she was born, in the year 1994.
Wheres 5?
Somewhere in this world.
A fact about number 1?
I can tell her everything about me.
Who is 4 going out with?
Me! Haha. No one.
What does 1 do for a living?
Schooling.
Would you live with number 3?
I'd love to.
What do you like about number 2?
She can read my mind. Haha.
Do you miss number 5?
Haha. Yeaaaah, like duh.
Would you make out with number 4?
Hahahahahha.
What’s your opinion of number 2?
She's the best.
What's your favorite memory with number 5?
Banyaaaaak, trust me. Haha.
What would you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
Hahahahahahaha. I'll laugh my ass off. Sweeeeet!
Ever had a long conversation with 5?
Haha. Yeaah, mesti laaaa.
Have you ever slept at 2's house?
Yeaah, pernah.
Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
Tak terkira.
Who have you known the longest?
Number 2 and five (:
How often do you talk to 1?
Used to talk to her every single day but not now. :(
What about 2?
Setiap hari wajib.
Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
Hahahah. She's my cousin.
Would you go out for a date with 5?
Hahahahaha. I shall say nothing. ;)
Do you dream about 2?
Pernaah juga she came into my dream.
What did no 4 did to you that you can never forget?
She's always here with me when I needed someone. Thanks sayang.
What have you done for 1 that the person never forget?
Went to her place before she left to Langkawi.
What's 3 hobby?
Bergossip.
Who do u want to TAG?
SEMUA (: Haha.
Saturday
My tummy is going crazzay! Oh god, not again.
So yeaah, I had a rough day. I've been using my brain a lot today. I had so may thoughts about this and that. And all my questions are still not answered yet. I woke up todaay, it was like at 12 noon. I went down and had my brunch. Madre came back from sekolaah, she asked us to go up and kemas sana sini cause my bedroom was in mess. I went up and mandi and kemas. It's clean and tidy now. Yayy. I was bored after that. Took out my Seventeen and Cleo magazines and baca. As soon as Im done, mum came and said, "Okaay, siap. We're going out". We went to My uncle's place somewhere in Bangsar for a birthday party. The food there was okay. Faten was there too. I missed her a lot. We talked, and Raudah joined us. Bla bla, the party ended. Dad asked after that, "Nak pergi mana lepas ni?". Everyone came up with an answer. We ended up at Pavilion. Jalan sana jalan sini, thought of watching a movie, tapi nothing nice on theatre. We wasted our time there jalan lagi macam kucing. Time wasted, semua orang penat. While we were walking to the parking, I saw this white kereta yang very very familiar. I checked the plate number or however you spell it la kan, it was Hamzah's car. Tried to call him tapi ada masalah technical. So yeaah, I texted him and asked. He didn't reply, he gave me a call. I didn't pick up the phone cause I was in the car. I seriously don't like to pick up phone calls dalam kereta, especially when mom and dad are around. We went to a restaurant somewhere in Taman Dagang for dinner. I didn't really eat, blame my tummy. So yeaah, we went home after that.
So yeaah, I had a rough day. I've been using my brain a lot today. I had so may thoughts about this and that. And all my questions are still not answered yet. I woke up todaay, it was like at 12 noon. I went down and had my brunch. Madre came back from sekolaah, she asked us to go up and kemas sana sini cause my bedroom was in mess. I went up and mandi and kemas. It's clean and tidy now. Yayy. I was bored after that. Took out my Seventeen and Cleo magazines and baca. As soon as Im done, mum came and said, "Okaay, siap. We're going out". We went to My uncle's place somewhere in Bangsar for a birthday party. The food there was okay. Faten was there too. I missed her a lot. We talked, and Raudah joined us. Bla bla, the party ended. Dad asked after that, "Nak pergi mana lepas ni?". Everyone came up with an answer. We ended up at Pavilion. Jalan sana jalan sini, thought of watching a movie, tapi nothing nice on theatre. We wasted our time there jalan lagi macam kucing. Time wasted, semua orang penat. While we were walking to the parking, I saw this white kereta yang very very familiar. I checked the plate number or however you spell it la kan, it was Hamzah's car. Tried to call him tapi ada masalah technical. So yeaah, I texted him and asked. He didn't reply, he gave me a call. I didn't pick up the phone cause I was in the car. I seriously don't like to pick up phone calls dalam kereta, especially when mom and dad are around. We went to a restaurant somewhere in Taman Dagang for dinner. I didn't really eat, blame my tummy. So yeaah, we went home after that.
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