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Hardest

I'm tired of doing this, really. Shhhoot.

Sampah Masyarakat

Dear TRASHCAN,

Dah la nama tong sampah. Kesian, I bet you have better names that are given by your parents kan. But whatever, maybe you do look like the real trashcan pun. I don't care at all cause Im really thankful to be who I am right now. Anyways, I don't even care about what you wanna say. Saya takkan mati and Im not the one who's getting the dosa. And yeah, memang tak cantik pun. Why? Are you thaaaaat cantik? Bagus laaa. I forgot one thing today. You're the most prettiest person in this world kan? And Im sooooooooooo ugly. Oh God, stop being so annoying by talking about other people. Jaga tepi kain sendiri is much more worth it than you care about others. Please and thank you.

You listen

My mind is working at this time. Do you wanna know why? Because it's already 4.30 am and Im still awake. And as some of you know, I think a lot while my brain is resting. So yeah. Let me talk and sort things out one by one.

#1; Azie
I miss you. Come back home.

#2; Starshine
It's good that you're friendlier nowadays ;)

#3; *A new name has been decided for you which is Greeny.
You know, talking to you is fun. Your voice are awesome and you like to talk about cute things. You are cute, I just realized that.

#4; Dahdy
Have fun in Indonesia and I'll see you there soon, Insya Allah.

#5; Magic
You had me, now and always. Thanks for your concern but I found it weird. I don't know why. It has been awhile but I still have those weird dreams everynight. That's why I don't like going to bed nowadays. I put it on, on every single day and please, don't ever ask why. You know it well, you do. The harder you are, the harder it is going to be for me. 15536

#6; Redwhine
I'm fine with it, honestly. But things are more serious now and it really freaked me out. There are so many people came up to me and ask about it. I'm tired of telling them the truth. I hope you understand.

#7; Strawberry shortcake
I'd love to sort things out with you. But I really think it ain't my fault AT ALL. I don't live to have problems with you. That's why I don't want us to have this between us. I know it actually hurts me so bad when you did that but I really forgive and forget. That's just who I am. So, Im just gonna wait for the right time.

Miss

I miss it.

I miss this.

I miss that.

I miss me.

I miss you.

I miss us.

I miss them.

I miss.

Hahaha. Otak senget.

Better

Good to know that you guys are dating. Bagus bagus, semoga kahwin ke anak cucu.

Jangan buat banyak dosa. L! (:

Sit and Think

22nd May 2009. A year has passed. WOW.

You Say

I decided to stay at home today. The main purposes was to get enough rest & study. But it didn't turn out like how I planned. Haha. Here goes some of my pictures, CAMWHORING.

Theme : No theme.

Location : My room.

Clothes : My own collection.

Photographer : Tangan sendiri.

Camera : My own.

Current song on iTunes : Sempurna by Andra & The Backbone *SHEEESH, what a song.

Not true.

You said Im with him.
And you said Im with him.
You thought Im with that person.
And yes, you said Im with that guy.
You asked, are you with him now?
You asked whether Im with him or not.

Im just clearing things up.
Fyi, Im not with anyone.
It was all rumors and none of them are true.
Please and thank you.

P.S.

It's back. You would never know when will it come back. It will come as a surprise. I really hate it when it comes without even a warning. I tried to get out from it but I failed. It just don't get better at all.

Last week

"So, why are you staying back hotstuff?"
My favourite line of last week.
Hahahaha.

Sha la la

I saw Tinkerbell. Awww. I miss you Tinky baby.

You are finally born.

To one of my favourite cousin, Hamzah, A very Happy 16th Birthday to you. May all your dreams and wishes come true. And may Allah bless you. You've been such a lovely cousin and classmate to me. I appreciate you presence in my life as a cousin. Have a pleasant day on your birthday.

Love for Mothers

Dear mother,

I love you more than anything. You gave birth to me. You fed me. You gave me almost everything I asked for. You helped me out when I needed you. You listened to me whenever I started talking. You talked to me whenever Im lonely. You sent me to tuitions. I love you because I love you so much. You're the best mother ever. Happy Mother's Day (: Lots of loveeeeeee.

Disappointment.

Yes, your words proved me wrong. Two in a day. What is that? Can I know? What did I do? Why are you doing this to me? Hello? Say something. Oh yeah, before I forgot. Thanks for hurting my feelings.

Surprise Surprise!

We had a Hari Jadi Tergempar (Surprise Birthday Party, translated to BM) for Anas last Wednesday. It was fun. Emma brought the food and I brought the drinks and lighter for the candles. Everyone had to paid like 10 bucks each for everything. Hope you like it Anas. (:

You are, human or what?

I have a story to tell. I have this friend of mine. We used to be close at least. I mean like, I can tell him anything and same goes to him. Okay, we can skip that part. Yeah, it has been awhile since I last talk to him. Well, I heard so many things about him lately. I heard that he's dating this random girl. Yes, she is soooooooo into him. The girlfriend is so proud being my friend's girlfriend. That's good la I guess. She even said that she would do anything, you know anything for him. How sweet she is towards him. Awww. But yes, I received a text from that guy friend of mine couple of nights ago. He said Hii and everything. I asked him about his girl. Surprisingly, he said "No, Im not with her. Like no way. She's so not my type." I was shocked! Like hello, you gave hopes to her and now you said that about her? WOW WOW WOW, I said back. I told him everything about what the girl said about him. He laughed? Like what?! I don't know who you are now. I really wanted to tell the girl the truth tapi I just don't know how. It's hard because I really don't want her to get hurt. But on second thoughts, I think I really should tell her cause it might hurts her more if she finds out from other person than me. I just want her to wake up and smell the coffee. And to you my friend, stop breaking people's heart. Try to be more human at least. She has feelings, so do you. Think wisely, cause you so don't want people to hate you. Kesiaaaan la that girl. I know you won't be reading this pasal you have no idea about this blog, but please laaaaaaa.

Again and again

Yes, Im still awake eventhough it's already at 4 in the morning. Im having fever again. Sighh.

I can

It's not like I plan to do so or what, but I just can't do it. Not now. I think it's still too early for me to say anything. Things are still not right, with exams coming and stuff. I am so sorry if you think I might or may hurt your feelings but Im just scared. You don't know how hard it is for me to cope with all of these. It takes time and Im almost there. But not yet there. Im not here to disappoint you or anyone, but Im sure you're having that kind of thoughts. And again, Im saying sorry. I apologize. Things are gonna be fine soon Insya Allah. (:

Goodbye

It's already 2.33 in the morning and Im still awake. Currently listening to Goodbye by Miley Cyrus. I can't sleep. It has been a weird night tonight. I think I know why but I just don't wanna say it. Yes mum, thanks a lot. We should have not used that way. You know why. I can still feel it. It's really hard and difficult but Im still trying here. It might take sometime but you have to understand it's a slow process. A very slow one.

It's May 1st already. Im wishing you A Very Happy Sweet 16th, Ayi. Hope that you'll be blessed by Allah all the time (: