Power's Out

Dearest sayang,
I know things are so hard for you right now.
Things may be easy for me when I'm not in your position.
But God is fair.
Insya Allah, with all the prayers,things will be fine.
I will not stop praying for better days for you, I promise.
Unless I die.

I have a song to give you.

I got a shoulder built for you
Just in case you need it to lean on
These hands I have are for you
Just in case you need help to hold on

The world is just a super sized merry go around
Sometimes your finger loose their grip, we all fall down

Don't sit there in the dark
Don't worry your heart
Everything will be fine
If trees fall on your power line
If your wills turn strong
You will always have a home
If your power's outIf the light turn dark
You can stay here in my heart
If your power's out

My food is yours
Take all you want
My bed is yours
Steep all you want

I will always love you,

RD

With love

Yes, with so many thoughts, I finally found a conclusion.
For now, what I wanted in my life is to change.
Be a better person, for good.
And also importantly, be a good muslim.
Changing yourself is actually easy, it's all up to us.
You can't be perfect, but you can be the best.
What I meant by that is when you change for better, you do it step by step.
In other words, we say it as mengikut kemampuan.
You don't do it cause you are forced.
You do it because of Allah.
In my case, I'm lucky to have sayang(him) to change me.
He has the nicest words when it comes to nasihat.
I can't believe that I actually cried once listening him telling me how beautiful Kaabah was.
His words really got into my heart.
It's proven that every nasihat he has given, worked on me.
And yes, knocked my head about being seorang Islam.
Alhamdulillah, my solat is now terjaga, better than before.
I did miss some of the waktu, but I will feel really bad.
Like what happened today.
Thank God abang Mi told me that I could Qadak my solat.
I felt less guilty, but still having the guilt in my heart until now.
Found someone who can really change me is a real big thing.
Most people said that he's lucky to have such nice or sweet girl like me.
But people are just so wrong.
Never believe in that.
It's actually the other way round.
I am one of the luckiest person to be lived and to meet someone like him.
He changed me inside out.

So sayang, if you read this (which I don't think he will, Haha.)
Thanks for every single thing you have taught me.
Especially for every single words of your nasihat.
And every single knock you did on my head.
Not to forget, every single love that you gave.
I love you.

An appreciation,

RD

Hardness

In life, do believe in this.

Let go of the past because something and someone worthy awaits for you.

Truthfully,

RD

Love

Kissin' U by Miranda Cosgrove

Starts with an A.

Well, the plan has been changed.
Done with the list and totally loving it.
I have to start doing the real one.
Now, I have to focus on the things.
Need to write a proposal and give it to kakak.
I'm all freaked out.
Jeeeesh.
I hope you love it!

Told you I love you.

RD

You're 48!

We had walid's birthday barbeque party and house warming for his staffs yesterday.
Well, Ziha was the only person who made it last night. Haha.
The food was good.
The crowd was good.
The cake was cute.
The gifts were pretty.
The house was just awesome.
Happy Birthday, Walid.
I love you dad (:

Your daughter,

RD.

Natural

Yessssssss, DECIDED. I'm gonna get that and yes, more things need to be done. I hope you like it ;)

Your love,

RD

Frozen

Something for a friend;

Just beacause we're not close anymore, doesn't mean I dont care about you.

Your friend,

RD

Money Matter

Well, I have gotten back some of my exam papers.
Truthfully, I have made a lot of improvements, I'm thankful to Allah for that.
Alhamdulillah.
But I'm still quite disappointed in my marks even though a lot improvements have been made.
Especially for Math and Add Math.
Those are my so favourite subject and the only mark I got was only 90% for Math and 53% for Add Math.
Work smarter next time please, darling?



April: OVERSPENT.
Yes, I'm gonna talk about money now.
I overspent on costumes, food, and some other things that I don't think I should spend on pun.
So Bihah darling, you have to save up your MONEYH.
I have already planned my strategy for this upcoming month.
As you can see, I have to do/buy a lot of things.

1. Pay up the phone bill.
2. Buy sayang's birthday present
3. I still owe Ziha a present (:
4. Get credits for my other phone.

So yeah, I hope my plans and strategies work this time cause it never worked before this.

Money saver,

RD

In life, people change.

Change for good or maybe the other way round.

Maybe in my case, I'm unlucky.

Those people who used to be close to me changed, but for bad things.

I didn't ask for it, and I know they did not too.

I have no power to change anything but the only thing I can do is pray to God that they will realize someday how much I miss the old them.

I know I have been complaining a lot about how annoying these people are, and I am sorry.

I just don't like it that you have to treat me this way.

At the same time, I am thankful to God for having this one guy in my life.

He has always been there for me, through my very rough time.

I know I am stubborn at times, but you never complained.

You teach me the best lessons in the world about life.

Thanks sayang for doing this to me.

I never loved someone like how I love you.

Yours truly,

RD

It's funny

Without anyone knowing, I always write "I love you" on the worksheets you gave.
Haha.

Yours truly,

RD

Heart

I wanna prove I love u, but that's the hardest part. Because you might not believe.
So, I'm giving all I have to give to u, my heart. (:
I love you more than anyone else does, sayang.

Lovelovelove,

RD

It Started

Somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes, I fell in love.
Yeah, that is how my love started.
Not months ago, but years ago.
I kept it all inside my heart, until November 16th 2009. (:

I'm yours

RD

IU Day

Yesterday was our school's IU Day. Let me tell you, it was awesome. Well, I didn't expect the whole event will go so very smoothly. But it happened. Alhamdulillah. Sally and I were fully in charge in the performances. Sally, we made a good team. They like the performances. This photo up here was taken during the love play we had.

An interactor,

RD

Yours

I have a saying for you sayang,
Liking you is easy but loving you is easier than how hard I thought it would be because what you have inside your heart is a miracle.

Your love,

RD

Lavv

It's our 5th month anniversary.

YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE DOES.

Your girl,

RD

Laff you

Omg, sayang.
I'm so seriously madly in love with you.
You're awesome in every single way.
Thanks for everything.
I LOVE YOU. <3

Bitter

Omg, here comes the feelings again.
I miss the old you.
The one who always been there for me.
No matter how weird I can get at times.
I told you my secrets because I trusted you.
Now, I don't know what had happen to you.
Why did you change?
Why did you become like this?
Since things aren't right between us,
I have doubts of telling you things.
Let's make this right please.

Sweet

Just made a quote ;

"I would integrate the function, find the gradient, and then get the X. Substitute X into Y and then compare with the original equation. Will find the maximum point, and then calculate the area and the volume of the circles, get the radians. That is my own formula of loving you."

Big Thank You

I would write this cause I know no one would read this.

Haha.

Dear sayang,

Thanks for every single thing you did.

Thanks for changing me into a better person.

Thanks for telling me the greatest lessons about life.

Thanks for sending me back home.

Thanks for teaching me a lot of things about numbers.

Thanks for talking to me every night.

Thanks for making me laugh.

Thanks for filling my life with a lot of happiness and funny moments.

Thanks for knocking my head about a lot of stuff.

Thanks for getting me my favourite fragrance.

Thanks for inspiring me.

Thanks for being a friend.

Thanks for letting me loving you.

Most importantly, thanks for loving me.

You're mine,

RD

My friends

You knew my name.
You knew everything about me.
I tried to be nice.
All the things that you have said and done.
You may think I never knew about them.
But word travels fast.
I'm telling you to your face.
I'm standing here for myself.
You don't know how it feels.
To be treated like this.
You don't know what it's like.
To be left out.
And you don't know how it feels.
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in.
If you could read my mind.
You might see more of me that meets the eye.
And you've been all wrong.
Not who you think I am.
You've never been nice to me lately.
I'm not asking for more.
I'm not gonna say anything.
You should know that you've changed.
And it breaks my heart.
I'm tired, tired of being treated this way.
I don't like you badmouthing my boy.
I hate that you can't even be happy for me.
Think about it my friends.
I don't know you anymore.

One of your friends.

RD

Annoyed

I have this friend.
Well, honestly saying, I just don't like him.
He has this thing where he thinks he is so cool.
I mean like, you don't have to fake it.
He seems like a person who hates himself so badly but he tries so hard to love himself.
Tapi tak berkesan.
If you are cool, you will be one.
No faking it, oh please.
Wake up and be yourself.

Honestly,

RD

Volume

So yeah, just got back from tuition.
Had a long day, after berpuasa.
I had fun berpuasa today.
Alhamdulillah.
Anas taught us how to do the volume of the curve.
It was fun and interesting.
The feeling of not getting the right answers are actually very inspiring.
Haha.
I know it's weird but trust me, I ain't wrong.
Having a great cikgu is very helpful.
Being studying with Anas for 3 years, that's long enough.
Well, he's one the best, no joke.
Tak percaya, you can always come to iStudio and give a try ;)
You won't regret.

Student,

RD

Dear Dad

I went out with the family today.
Well, it was fun.
Especially seeing my dad happy and everything.
He had problems at the office.
I mean I really thought things are fine now..
UNTIL..
Odah brought up a story after dinner.
I'm so worried about walid.
I hope things are going to be fine with the office.
I didn't know he is such a good pretender.
I didn't even know that the problems are still up.
Oh God.
I really wish I can help him.
It's always a dream of mine to work there
And you know someday I might take over the place or anything.
Dear walid, I will never stop praying to Allah for you.
Insya Allah, things will be fine.
Amin.

Yes, it's me.

RD

Light of My Life

Do you have that special someone that changes you inside out?

Do you have that special someone who inspires you in so many ways?

Do you have that special someone who loves you for who you are?

Do you have that special someone who makes you smile and laugh all the time?

Well, I do.

This person is so specially different.

First of all, He's brilliant in his studies.

When it comes to responsibilities towards God pun, Alhamdulillah.

He thinks and does things very rationally.

He has amazing words that when he say things, he could change someone's feelings.

And the best things is, he has this awesome sides of him that really caught my heart.

I have once wrote an essay about how inspiring he is to me.

He has been an amazing friend, a brother, a teacher, a listener & an advicer in my life.

And of course, a very good boyfriend la. ;)

Metaphorically, he's like a light that leads me to a better future.
WOW. Haha. I know.

He has always been there for me whenever I need help.

I really appreciate his presence in my life.

Without him, my life would be different and real boring.

Like really because even a day without him I find it sufferingly boring.

TO BE CONTINUED...

So yeah, I'm done for today's part.

I shall continue soon.

One and Only,

RD

Justification

It has been ages since I last updated. And here I am again.
As far as I can see, people has stopped reading blogs.
Due to that, I'm gonna make this blog as something personal.
A sort of a diary, where I write whatever I have in my heart.
From the happiness of life, till the sadness of living.
It's all gonna be on here.
That's why It's Personal Again.

Yours truly,

RD

After A While

I'm back and wiser than ever ;)
xoxo