Yeah, I have loved you long.

I just custom made Katy Perry's The One That Got Away and I would dedicate this song to ...I think you know who I've been writing about all these years.

All time during high school when I like you
We learn so much about love, life and honesty
And on my 18th birthday I made wishes on you
Used to talk all night long and tell you I love you
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in other life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was dreaming you were my only love
Never thought, things would change, you would leave us
Sometimes when I miss you, I put your song on, whoa
Someone said you had a better life now
Saw you downtown laughing all around
It's time to face the music, I'm no longer your muse

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one
The one that got away

All these tears can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't relive back those moments with you
We should've make it last make it forever, whoa
Cause I want people to realize

In another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The one, the one, the one, the one

And in another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away

The day I have once planned to remind you that it has passed the 2000th hour since you've flown to London is the day you came back home. A coincidence or all fated, I am not sure but my instincts about you are never wrong. To see you after 2016 hours is a big bless to me. No words could ever explain how good and thankful I am. Things are a little bit off my expectations, but you should know how more than happy I am to see you. If only time machines were existed in this world, I would go back to the time I saw you coming out from the car, I would just run up to you, hug you tight, cry on your shoulder and listen to your heart beats but knowing what my boundaries are, and how painful we have went through, I'll secretly wish for these. I realized that I now have fear of expressing my feelings directly but I believe it's the best thing for me cause I might have just upset or even hurt people more. I am scared to be who I was before. So, I am sorry. It means so much to me to get to know why you came back for. But I know how uneasy things should be now after the pain I have caused you and how painful it is for me too. I know I can't say this anymore to you, but if you ever get to read this, I love you. You are the wishes I made while I blew off my candles on my birthday and you are also the prayers I said each time I talk to our God.

Sometimes when too many words are said, I tend to wonder...

When one said how hypocrite I have been, I wonder why

When one said how stupid I am, I cannot see why

When one said how dramatic I am, I am clueless why

When one said how not-human-but-an-animal-heart I am born with, I am not sure why

I do not know what kind of person I should be

These tear me up but

Maybe you are right and will always be right

I am not human at all.

2 years, 730 days, 17520 hours, 1051 200 minutes, 63 072 000 seconds.

I would forever treasure those good times we had. Even when everything is going all hopeless between us now. Happy 2nd Anniversary, even when everything has sort of ended for us. I love every second of being called yours. You will never be a regret of mine, no matter what. I hate the fact that the your trust is now lost but at the same time, I am hating that you will never understand how insecure you have made me feel. You're millions miles away from me, but you're never an inch apart from my heart. I do not show how sad I have been, all because of what you have taught me. You kept telling me do not grieve on sadness. So, I do not do that. You are wrong if you think I am feeling all glad when everything is falling apart between us. You know how much you mean to me, how much love I have given out for you, how attached I am to you, how close you are to me, how amazing I think you have always been. Only God knows how painful it is for me to go through life alone. I've known and loved you for too long and too strong to let you slip away. But it seems like that is what has been written for us. Dear Anas, if you ever get to read this, I am sincerely writing this, I am sorry if I'm crying now cause I know how much you hate it about the fact that I am so sensitive about so many things, I just wanna let you know, I have loved, I will always love and I am loving you for every heartbeat of mine. You are just one irreplaceable love I will always have, you will forever be in this heart of mine. I will keep praying for your life, day and night and I will not stop, Insya Allah. I hope no matter how better life has been for you, do not ever stop loving me because you are the best thing I've ever gotten from Allah, apart from my family and religion. I love you Sayang, even when ending has taken its place.

Even though Melaka still hasn't won any space in this heart, living there is still undeniably painful for, but I still made it. One word, Alhamdulillah. Thank you God for always listening and keep answering to my prayers. Living by the name and the sake of Allah obviously won't harm you in any way. I can guarantee you the most beautiful life a person could ever wish for. I really hope to be a better Muslim on each day I wake up from my sleep. I would expect to be better but I am still thankful. Also millions of appreciations to my beloved parents, siblings, best and good friends, gifted lecturers, cousins and not to forget, this man named Anas for the never-ending knowledge, support and especially prayers. May God bless these people for better than what I have got until today. Insya Allah.