I kept hearing non-existed words been screaming by this broken side of me.
Sometimes I felt like I have lost myself is this mixture of sadness.
Everyday I had to find new hopes with stronger faith.
I am halfway throughout the year
By far, one of the toughest 6 months this heart had gone through
I had a rose with thorns that bled my fingers
I sang happy song that saddened myself
I smiled for the most painful reason
I hope I did that for the right intention
Which to only seek His blessings
Today, something tells me I have lost the warmth and comfort from someone I cared the most
I hate to see myself crying when I really thought I have changed and become insensitive
Again, I am wrong
My intention is judged and due to that, people decided to walk away
I am now walking alone again on this shaky bridge
Dear Allah SWT,
I seek for love, acceptance and guidance.
I may need strength and endless of mercy from You.
Fill this heart with happiness, replace this loneliness with smiles, shower this empty self with more blessing.
I pray that You would guard this heart from breaking into pieces.
Out of all that, if You still putting me through hard times, I know You only do it because You love your servant, insya Allah.
"They say one day you'll look out your doorI am slowly seeing that, in this house especially. I hope I'll find more love.
And you'll find where you truly belong
And that moment, you will know that love is so sweet"
