I know I've been crying,
But you should know it's not because of how you treat me.
I love you no matter how weird things are between us.
What we have now means a lot to me.
You've changed me in so many ways and thank you for that.
You taught me so many things about life.
Having someone like you keeps me smile every single day.
I know I was being a jerk at times when I'm with you.
Just so you know, I was like that because of me, not you.
Caring and loving about someone is a beautiful thing to me.
You should know who is that someone I'm talking about.
I don't know how should I bare with what's gonna happen when you're not around.
I turned out to be insanely sad when you didn't reply my goodnight wish.
And things might get worse when you'll be away for the very two weeks.
I won't be surprised if that really happens to me.
Two of my Wednesdays won't be as fun as how it should be.
I know you're leaving soon, very soon.
And it's only for awhile, I know.
But things are really hard for me cause you won't be around on the day I turn seventeen.
But that does not matter.
You have stronger reasons why you should be there.
I hope you'll get better and will come back with good news.
I'll be waiting here, at home.
I am going to miss you, trust me.
How I wish I could tell you this.
Tell you about how I feel towards this whole thing.
I guess the time is not here yet.
I should give you a lot of spaces so that I won't distract you or anything.
My alarm rang just now, 35 minutes ago.
Can't believe it's been two months we're together.
I'm glad that what we have is still going strong, I think.
I know you won't be reading this.
But at least I feel better by letting out my feelings by writing it here.
I guess I'll be doing my very first intervensi without my inspiration this time.
I love you no matter what
XOXO.
